TikTok truths

When there is a trend that half of the population adapts to and then it is removed, a trial test was run. I worked in the hoods of Baltimore and Savannah for a combined 12 years and our government would test reactions to half truths in this demographic all the time through removing textbooks, encouraging cell phone …

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We attach to survive

Before we make sense of the world, the world shapes our mind. If what we take in through our senses conveys to our brain that we don’t have safety or acceptance in the world, we conclude negative things about who we are in it. Nurture begins the day we are birthed and it can greatly …

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confessions from an unwanted stripper

In thinking about myself and believing I was un-wanted, I remember expecting everyone to eventually leave.  It didn't take long to learn that I could shield myself from abandonment by being the first to walk away.  Sometimes I would sabotage a connection to see if the outcome was predicted.  For a decade I had sex …

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Dear Younger me

Dear Younger Me, As I address those little eyes which have cried and cried and cried, my right hand covers my heart for connection to your compassionate expression.  Made to believe that your sensitivity was a weakness, that your hypervigilance was unnecessary, or that your voice screeched in the heads of those around you; you …

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Internal sibling rivalry

Everyone has an internal family system waiting to let go of beliefs and lies that promote sibling rivalry between its parts. Arguments inside your system stem from polarized viewpoints on a subject much like a brother and sister conflicting with each other in the outside world. For every disconnect in relationship there is a part …

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A shepherd for my dismal days

Many of us remember a tragedy and its specific details; where we were and what took place.  Those "moments", those wounds could have been the beginning of our scattered souls, where we doubted the Shepherd and thought He left us unprotected from the preying wolves. "For this is what The Sovereign Lord says: I myself …

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Spiritual evidence of Overcoming trauma

My blurb next to my senior picture was a glimpse into how I viewed my place in the world.  I had already been kicked out of my fathers house and told by my mother that she didn't know what to do with me, so I crashed at grandmas often.  I was unwanted to the core …

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This is the reason why……

Dear Friend, I appreciate your inquiry about my life's decisions, but your observations and conclusions couldn't possibly know the reason why I do anything.  I had a teacher run into me 15 years after high school and state that he thought I "would have wound up dead  in a gutter somewhere." That hurt my feelings a …

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“TAMMY” & Blowing up some fireworks

Sarcasm has become my coping strategy here in the South as I have tried to make sense of the Bible Belt having the highest rate of addiction that I have ever witnessed. I'm wondering if Northern states just don't have the cray cray of homeless addicts that the low country does, simply because it is …

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I’m leaking

Draw a line down the paper and write from the younger side on the left with the Left hand. Being left behind. Being insignificant. I don't have what it takes to compete so I give up. I'm not ok, I'm leaking.  Visit the inner child. On the right side of the paper write from your …

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