For Far too Long

For far too long, I have carried physical pain in my body, perhaps my whole life. I attributed much of my pain to the emotional sufferings I endured and witnessed as a child. I didn't make that connection until I was hospitalized for an eating disorder many years ago. Perhaps developing a love/hate relationship with …

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Fail spectatularly

Fall on your face and fail spectacularly because when you fail you learn, when you fail you live. I so desperately want to keep this past chapter of my life open for the possibilities that I held out for, for the hope that all of my investment would pay me back in dividends and deposit …

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This is the reason why……

Dear Friend, I appreciate your inquiry about my life's decisions, but your observations and conclusions couldn't possibly know the reason why I do anything.  I had a teacher run into me 15 years after high school and state that he thought I "would have wound up dead  in a gutter somewhere." That hurt my feelings a …

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Dating a dissociative

Daddy always knows what I need.  I believed I needed to have a partner move with me to the South for close proximity to observe a lifestyle that could have easily been hidden through distance.  I had trust issues and knew the emotional distance I was able to concoct in order to survive deep interaction …

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Three criteria for a mate

Three criteria come up for me when I consider who NOT to date. I'm getting better at sniffing out who isn't compatible with me based on the suffering I have already lived through. Let's face it none of us are getting any younger so with each day that passes by, it is important to store …

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Hurricane’s can’t take anything

I had a dream two nights ago where I was in the passenger seat and Daddy God was driving. We spoke to the coming hurricane together in a soft whisper, "peace be still" and declared calm over the raging waters. When I woke up I had incredible comfort knowing my Father in heaven trusts me …

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Don’t let me flatline

Process is synonymous with family. What God did for you becomes my prophecy. I can use your testimony to speak hope into my circumstance. Revelation without application leaves it in frustration. Apply it to your life. Practical way to birth a promise. Trust something different. You be you and I'll be me and I'll be …

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“TAMMY” & Blowing up some fireworks

Sarcasm has become my coping strategy here in the South as I have tried to make sense of the Bible Belt having the highest rate of addiction that I have ever witnessed. I'm wondering if Northern states just don't have the cray cray of homeless addicts that the low country does, simply because it is …

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I want to ask.

"Don't ask why, just do it", is hardly a way to lead others. People under the burden of the "just do it" crazymaker aren't free to ask why. Asking questions is considered rebellious, defiant, and insubordinate. Obedience, they feel, should be automatic and unquestioned. Yet to forbid questions greatly discourages the formation of responsibility in …

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autism shouldn’t shatter dreams

I dreamt that dinosaurs left three mountains of poop in my backyard that I had to climb over.  I rested in between each pile of dung for a moment before trying to climb the next one.  After I finally got over the third mountain the dinosaurs would pace back and forth keeping me hedged in. …

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