my mom in male form

Something about that dynamic between two people, where one executes all of the power through maltreatment of the other, didn't fit for me anymore as an adult. It just feels mean and creates fear in me because I can't be myself around him.  Here I am again, disturbed as soon as he left because I …

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What we believe, prospers

"The object of the game of life is to see clearly one's good and to obliterate all mental pictures of evil. This must be done by impressing the subconscious mind with a realization of good. It is man's only enemy-fear of lack, fear of failure, fear of sickness, fear of loss and a feeling of …

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False Assumptions

"Grieving is a conscious process by which we deliberately release our attachment to persons,goals, wishes, or religious systems that we can no longer have. Our attachment to these outgrown things, in fact, keeps us from connecting to new and better things that God has for us.  (2Cor.6:11-13) Openness to the past is the way through …

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Calling back relationships

Find out what you want Justice for, and demand that the enemy repays you for every attempt to steal, kill and destroy your life.  Call back every blessing Daddy intended for your bloodline, especially those things that generations before you didn't fulfill. Come into the courts of Heaven and declare a righteous decree of recompense for …

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Catastrophic casting

Now I understand that people need a lot of proof to believe in things that thwart their mindsets, heck that is the reason so many people live in denial. It is also the reason why people can't heed warning, take the advice they give, live in codependence and get offended easily, but for the love …

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Empathy for Black Culture

I am in the city district for public schools where the white color of my skin poses a problem for my acceptance and ability to impact the children I teach unless I tell them from the moment they enter the classroom that I am an advocate for their rights.  And I am, someone who truly …

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How does my pain lie to me?

John Evans taught people with illnesses to stop asking, “Why did this happen to me?” and just describe what is happening.  He teaches them to replace the question “why do I have this illness?” with the statement “I have this illness.”  He says, “Once clients can throw away the ‘why me?’ question they are on …

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Innocent

We are not our sin. We are not our mistakes. We do not have to re-live physical ailments that remind us of a memory in the past. I was 32 when my memories came back to me about sexual abuse starting when I was 3 years old. The emotional pain lingered for years and destroyed …

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