Dysmorphic Identity

As an incest survivor and spending my whole life in and out of treatment for an eating disorder and body dysmorphia, I now counsel others who suffer from complex trauma. Most of my clients had terrorizing childhoods and almost all suffered a breech in personal boundaries through touch. If a child can't protect itself, it …

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Three days before dog praise

My old self was quite melancholy and the new year of 2022 has brought challenges to praise, especially when my pomeranian puppy engulfed a scrunchy. The thing had to be as big as his stomach but I was shocked that he didn’t choke on it going down. In amazement I searched the surroundings just to …

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Lives spared from speed

I was going to skip my hyperbaric visit since it is a 4 hr ordeal but I thought I would give it one last try, and indeed it will be. The traffic is so scary, talk about changing lanes, but one hour each way dodging semi-trucks is more stress on my body that I’m trying …

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Baptismal Birthings

They had a call for a baptism and it was in that moment where I realized I had to lay down everything that I’ve been holding onto, all that I gripped with my fists because I didn’t believe that God could offer me something better in exchange for. I had been dancing during worship for …

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turbulent testimony

If I didn’t even trust Daddy with my life anymore, how could I ever trust the people He places in it?  My intimacy with Daddy had almost come to a standstill and it was affecting the closest person to me, my boyfriend. I wanted him to help me with life instead of the One who …

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The parts that lie to us

My scientist friend shared she was feeling inadequate after completing her PhD because she didn’t pursue publication of her research, in essence she was being bullied by a cluster of parts within her system. These parts who remind her of inadequacies encompass the bully, critic, failure, less than, angry, depressed and fighter parts. They often …

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Ridiculousness

God asks you to give up you to be more than you thought you could be.  Live in the reality of heaven knowing it doesn't matter what people think of you.  Be possessed by the Holy Spirit and the expectation of others possessing love toward you will disappear.  Self preservation may feel like a protective …

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Facing fear and unbelief head on

I rented a cabin, recruited my best friend and packed up the puppy to bring the great outdoors into my line of vision and embrace facing my fear of heights.  The first day we drove with anticipation for 3.5 hours into the North Carolina mountains of Saluda with enough time to check into our primitive …

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codependency is nurtured

Our society has been overtaken by codependency because it always takes root generationally. When we need to persuade, influence or control others so that our internal emotions can calm down, we have lost our self. We are not responsible for how others behave or react to our behavior because everyone misbehaves at times. To recognize …

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