Thankful for the ER

I can't believe green slime that glowed could be projectile vomited from deep within my body in such violent force.  My symptoms of stabbing pain in my intestines and back were uncontrollable and came on without warning.  My extremities became heavy and when dizziness made my head feel like it was spinning, I knew I …

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Why, I don’t understand

Why?  I've always asked why but never found the answer.  Asking why always left me with more questions so I built a defense mechanism through strength which allowed me to move on and focus on "doing" something about the facts instead of feeling the emotions.  If I asked myself, "what am I going to do …

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Inauguration of good vs. evil

I think about all the good being called bad and the bad getting called good in this era, and I seriously think I was born in the wrong century.  I guess that proves just how much I live in a fantasy mindset because I completely block out the cowboy shootings and brothels of the Wild …

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Taxing times under authority

Parables can be powerful.  They should be, Our Savior was the first to speak them with intent.  The messages hidden within the words were meant to draw the listener, the reader, the seer, and the knower into a baffling rendition of what could be interpreted on a surface level.  Jesus was deep and requires that …

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False Assumptions

"Grieving is a conscious process by which we deliberately release our attachment to persons,goals, wishes, or religious systems that we can no longer have. Our attachment to these outgrown things, in fact, keeps us from connecting to new and better things that God has for us.  (2Cor.6:11-13) Openness to the past is the way through …

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Partner with Him first

To pause and rest in Daddy's presence is much different from getting a good night of sleep.  It is slowing my pulse to the tempo of His heart, envisioning Him as my partner, my confidant and most importantly, my true love.  He wipes my eyes of their tears over and over again, even when streams …

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To infinity and Beyond Salvation

I used to doubt my ability to heal the pain in people's lives when I knew they were influenced by an evil spiritual force.  I attracted witches, cult members, fairies, those practicing new age, hitch hikers, addicts, criminals, prostitutes, mobsters, strippers, vagabonds, abusers, trans gender’s, religious zealots, petifiles, innocent people lured by secret societies and …

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Anger over how You didn’t love me.

I want to love to the best of my ability, to choose to stay in the present so I'm not so focused on my future escape plan from relationships that frustrate me.  I don't know where my next destination is but focusing on the things I hate about my current circumstances is stealing my peace …

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Breathing life of past prophecies

  12,11,13 In my need for organization, structure and chronological information, ie: control, I procrastinated in sharing very deep moments in Daddy’s presence.  With my new-found hope I am going to turn the writing over to the testimony of our Lord.  I am neither bragging nor boasting, but cannot keep buried the gratefulness that is …

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