The Judge

"It's amazing how movies can do that, lure you right into someone else's pain as it tears down your walls for the actors relationships while making your own vulnerable.  Your breath slows as you wait for every argumentative word to pack a punch of climatic ridicule and then you gasp when both people really shutter …

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Shake your fists at God

Why can't we express ourselves to God with anger? I'm angry but I'm told to repent and stuff it, how the hell is that being transparent with Daddy? Doesn't He already know why my heart is suffering? I've never adapted well to the "be good" type of Christianity that many appeal to. I know I'm …

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Fail spectatularly

Fall on your face and fail spectacularly because when you fail you learn, when you fail you live. I so desperately want to keep this past chapter of my life open for the possibilities that I held out for, for the hope that all of my investment would pay me back in dividends and deposit …

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Surrender to save your heart, The Moth

I have always told stories since I was a little girl.  It wasn't until recently that I discovered performing your story before a live audience was a real deal.  This was created for me, the actress who never hit the silver screen but had numerous inquiries if I was famous.  Maybe it's the name Angie …

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Surrogate to the youth

I tend to think in idealist ways and believe that we should always try to do something fearlessly and apologize later.  Too often however, I was told that I took action beyond the bounds and that my consequences would deter me a second chance.  Now, because I believe rules were meant to be broken, or …

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Dating a dissociative

Daddy always knows what I need.  I believed I needed to have a partner move with me to the South for close proximity to observe a lifestyle that could have easily been hidden through distance.  I had trust issues and knew the emotional distance I was able to concoct in order to survive deep interaction …

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Vulgarity in verbalizations

I have never been a fan of vulgar language and have walked away from many females taking part in such verbalizations because it hurts my soul. After all, we aren't born talking trash or even knowing what half the crude stuff being said even means until someone teaches us. How do we learn how to …

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Trust when a guy seeks sex.

Ladies, please trust a guy who says he only wants to have a sexual relationship. At least he is being honest about something even though it may persuade you to try to win his heart through sex. Don't fall for that either. Compromising your convictions to lay down with someone for the sake of being …

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Three criteria for a mate

Three criteria come up for me when I consider who NOT to date. I'm getting better at sniffing out who isn't compatible with me based on the suffering I have already lived through. Let's face it none of us are getting any younger so with each day that passes by, it is important to store …

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Finally conscious of loving ego

"The promptings, guilts, fixations, transgressions, woundings, cruelties, and rejections of childhood forced us to manuever through the world inside the automobile of a false self.  Even though we, as children, initially stepped into the vehicle for protection and mobility, we gradually forgot our true essence which took refuge there.  We lost touch with our souls …

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