An uprising of religious reputation

If you can put aside the person and look at the circumstance, it will afford you an opportunity to break through what is oppressive. To fight against any system that is founded on hierarchy, you have to address the demons running the show behind the spiritual scenes.  It will save you a ton of time …

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Emotions aren’t demons

Lord help those who shame others for being depressed, anxiety struck or sick because that says more about them than the ones they are addressing. And how does anyone else know more about his neighbor than what his neighbor has lived through? Let me re-phrase, "How does anyone else know more about me than I …

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turbulent testimony

If I didn’t even trust Daddy with my life anymore, how could I ever trust the people He places in it?  My intimacy with Daddy had almost come to a standstill and it was affecting the closest person to me, my boyfriend. I wanted him to help me with life instead of the One who …

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Dear Younger me

Dear Younger Me, As I address those little eyes which have cried and cried and cried, my right hand covers my heart for connection to your compassionate expression.  Made to believe that your sensitivity was a weakness, that your hypervigilance was unnecessary, or that your voice screeched in the heads of those around you; you …

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Instinctively feeling un-wanted

I am bubbling up inside and I can't stop laughing out loud.  I take two steps from the kitchen to the hallway and I pause with my hand on my heart, grateful for the stories I have lived to tell about.  I take two more steps and I lift my hands toward the heavens because …

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See me for myself

First of all Lord I'm sorry that I have believed I can heal another human. Look deep within my soul and cleanse me from undue responsibility. I'm sorry that I've believed I could do a better job than You at ministering to a loved ones brokenness. I'm so sorry for seeking love from people first …

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The motherless orphan

If I told my story about feeling motherless to a person who was adopted, I could describe the similarities of orphan-hood easily.   The Lord has revealed to me that those of us who were unwanted by our earthly parents have grown up with that same feeling of abandonment that orphans have. My focus of communicating …

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For Far too Long

For far too long, I have carried physical pain in my body, perhaps my whole life. I attributed much of my pain to the emotional sufferings I endured and witnessed as a child. I didn't make that connection until I was hospitalized for an eating disorder many years ago. Perhaps developing a love/hate relationship with …

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I’m leaking

Draw a line down the paper and write from the younger side on the left with the Left hand. Being left behind. Being insignificant. I don't have what it takes to compete so I give up. I'm not ok, I'm leaking.  Visit the inner child. On the right side of the paper write from your …

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