Here I am emotionally exposed to the person I once was just a year ago and recognizing how much I have grown.  I almost can’t believe it, that I’m able to pray for my spirit and to pray down the anxiety that wants to well up inside of me and condemn me.  I think of my life verse, Romans 8:1, “There is now no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus”, and how it was revealed to me over twenty years ago when I was walking away from a bad relationship.  I had never been “given” a scripture before and asked the lady “giving” it to me, if she was going to cut it out of the Bible.  She had to show me how to leaf through the pages to find the chapter and verse because I had no concept of how to apply the Word of God to my life.  When I read the verse I was washed of my shame and cried tears of remorse and hope.  Somehow, being completely disastrous in relationships was understood by a God who still loved me and a witness who could re-assure me of it.  I wish I could say that I never fell for a guys selfish pursuit again, but sadly I have been gullible to many charming agendas that have caused a distraction from my inner peace.  Being left behind by men whom I wanted to know me, left a trail of insecurity that I condemned myself with.  Yet, all I had to do was re-direct to the most up-standing man I know, Jesus, because although I sin greatly, He does not condemn me.